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| Yes i know i have NOT updated this in a long time.. That's because i write most of my stuff on myspace site.. www.myspace.com/brat42787 But i will try and write again on here more sorry people! love yas Stacie | | |
| To my thoughts:
Ever feel so alone to where you are alone? like you are the only one on the earth who is walking alone and is alone. That's how I feel right now, seriously i feel i can be everyone's buddy or friend but thats it. My friend Eddy** told me to leave it up to the lord and he will take care of my problems. I seiroulsy was thinking maybe if i change my ways things will get better. I started to put my problems in Eddy** and the lords hands and have them help me. well i feel that failed. dont get me wrong i still believe in the lord and pray to him everynight and ask him to help me. maybe i need to help myself and i know one thing is for sure, i need to lose my weight. seeing some old classmates and how great they are doing and turned out. even looking good, i feel if i lose my weight i can at least look good. i mean i anit doing great. i stayed in my small boring ass town and now going to a dull community college, instead of being away at a bigger and better school living in a dorm. and i mean what is so great about me? like i said i go to a community college for a major that wont make a lot of money and or make a difference. i work as a cashier at a truck stop and having my money taken away from me. Yeah i know thats the real world and I understand that. I mean in five to ten years when we go back to our renioun am i still going be the girl who lives with her parents and still have no license? im scared to go my get my license but i need them. I know it sounds like im being a baby and trying to feel sorry for poor little stacie but im hurting and im tired of hiding the hurt. it feels im giving up on everything. i mean i gave up on thing i adore and love as well as i was good at it because i dont have any time. i even gave up on coaching twirling, knwoing it will make some girls mad. and if you girls are reading this, IM SORRY! you may not know my reasons, but this is why: I felt maybe everyone was right, you CANT pull a graduated high school student who is one friends with the girls and two close to their age to teach. you girls deserve soemone who can make you look GREAT on the field and someone who you would respect more. Yes I sitll have your trophy from when you placed first and it will be turned into Pack by the time school starts. As well, as for the money you earned that was turned into Doni. Also girls, i had to move on and get on with my life. But remember this: if you girls want my cell phone number i'll give it to you and you can get ahold of me. Day or night, if you need me i'll be there to help and that goes for two sisters mainly! However, I am PROUD OF YOU GIRLS. as for the rest of my life... im hoping it will get on track. I hate crying myself to sleep at night and as for me to lose the weight, but i just need help! and some people i cant go to. sounds bad but its true. so im ending this entry in the hope of a new beginning and a good one for the next entry yet to come...
~Stacie Arlene~
*** Name was changed due to personal reasons! | | |
| The same crap has been going on, work and getting ready to go back to college. yeah i found that i have enough for tituation and my fees and maybe one book which is great for me but scary at the same time. However, i have been sick. i was taken into the emegency room for my asthma, heat exucsation and deygention.. yeah i know those words are spelled wrong i dont care you get the picture. My love life is still the same SINGLE! but right now i guess thats okay, still want someone but it's fine for now. well i know this is short but i want to go take a bath soak and lay down. write soon.
~Stacie~
if you have the cell number call me! | | |
| yeah i know, i havent updated this thing in a long time. WEll anyways lets see i work, sleep, be w. my family or friends and work. I work so much ne more they might as well just put a bed there for me. I mean come on i have the showers and food just need a bed lol. and i know the place to put it too ;) well anyways tonight was busy and harsh and im just glad im sitting down to relax... my legs and feet hurt soo bad! it sucks that I dont get to write on here as much. ... well i can say this, my eating habits have changes and i have a little secret too.. shh lol NO I ANIT STRAVING OR THROWING MY FOOD UP had to write that in caps before all of you freak out. but thanks to a good manager of mine, its helping and im starting to feel better....dont get me wrong I still have my moods but they are dying down some.... also amanda and robbie's wedding went really good, im so happy for them. Like I told them...Now it's time for babies!!! lol.. but they will make cute babies when the time is right... so anyways im tired i have a few other things to do here and im off to bed... like i told everyone else b4, if u need me call my cell now.. im excited i can say that. i just wanted to write to let everyone know im still alive... laterz
Stacie | | |
| im still here nothing new to really report just i did get s cell phone and im excited about that and everything if u want the number ask.. i will write more laterz i promise love ya guys
stacie | | |
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